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Wow, I didn't realize it's been about a week and a half since I wrote...

This past week has been a little stressful for me in regards to my job.  We are still under the whole bankruptcy thing and although things should be figured out by March 30th, nobody here in the PNW knows anything that's going on...and we haven't known much of anything for the past couple months.  The not knowing really gives me an uneasy feeling.  I've been applying for other positions like crazy, just in case, but the hospitals around here take so long to even get a hold of you if they want to interview you.  I'm talking a month + to even get a call.  Honestly, I just want our house stuff to go through.  I want this house so bad and it is time for us to take this step, I just don't want it to get messed up.  It's not about actually losing my job because I'm confident even once we had the house we would figure that out until I could find something else.  I'm willing to eat pasta roni and mac and cheese every night if I have to...I just want this house.  Deep down I really feel like everything will be fine, especially for me, I'm more of a little person on the totem pole.  I guess my concern is stemming from the possibility of these buyers (who are in Arizona and didn't want us in the first place) shutting us down and that's how I lose my job.  I'm hoping with everything I have that the buyers in Arizona have people who want to purchase us once the original buy goes through.  Why would they want to just purchase us and shut us down instead of getting more money by selling us??  I'm hoping I make a valid point there...i

On a happy note, I saw my little niece this weekend and I just LOVE her to pieces.  She is the cutest thing ever.  She is 7 1/2 months old now and she gave me kisses!  She opens her little mouth and leans forward it's so stinkin' cute!  She starts to cry if people she doesn't know hold her so I'm glad that she knows who her Aunt Sam is because she truly is the best.  I can't wait until she gets a bit older and starts talking, we're going to have so much fun, me and baby rae!

We also had Allie this weekend and her little attitude is getting so much better!  I've also felt/seen huge improvements with how she acts with me.  It's starting to finally feel like I have somewhat of a relationship with her which make me really happy.  I don't have the expectation to be her "step mom" but I want her to feel comfortable coming to me with anything and I want to be able to be a good influence and role model for her...Speaking of which, I have to go now because Mike and Allie are coming to get me to go to a friends house.  So caio for now!